Dreaming awake

Estaba colapsando así que me acosté en la tina con agua tibia. Cerré los ojos, imaginé que estaba en otro sitio, ciudad, país, planeta. Estaba simplemente en otro lugar. Imaginé que estaba en otro cuerpo, un cuerpo atractivo, una de esas caras que hacen que las personas miren y sonrian. Imaginé que era adulto y tenía a alguien esperandome en casa para besarme cuando llegara. Imaginé como sería ser feliz por siempre. Me veía a mi mismo sonriendo con el alma. Pero luego de un rato, cuando mis dedos estaba arrugados, abrí los ojos, tocaba "Losing my mind" de Maroon 5, se había oscurecido afuera y yo estaba solo. Pensé en que nadie me llama sólo para decirme un "te quiero", en que tengo responsabilidades, en que sonrio para ocultar la tristeza. Pensé en las veces que me voy a mi cama y sin importar la temperatura haga está fría. Pensé en los errores que he cometido. Luego pensé en mis amigos, la familia que yo elegí y que están allí la mayoría del tiempo. Pensé en que al menos tengo dos manos y dos pies. Pensé en las veces que sonreí porque no lo pude evitar. Quizás la vida no es tan mala según la perspectiva, no es la mejor ni la que elegiría si me dieran a escoger. Pero al menos intentaré ser feliz con nada, tal vez un día llegue alguien que me quiera como quiero.

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