They're all gone

Well, it's June 4th and pretty much everyone is gone and I really need to do some head up in my blog. Olly, my dear and hot friend from England is still around with his crazy quilt-wearing friend from Scotland named Ally. It's kinda hard to explain how do I feel about the fact that everyone is gone. A part of me is aware that they're gone and honestly I don't know if I ever gonna see them again, but the other part of me think that next Friday we're all gonna be together at the Joynt as usual. The funny thing is that the more people leaves, the more new people I meet. The whole Ben-Eric-Ross thing kept my head kinda busy lately, I gave myself the chance to like someone here, but who knows what can happen. 
I think I've learned something about myself, I lost the ability of deadly missing. I mean, I can miss, but just not deadly. I think I miss from my head, not my heart. What does it mean? I don't know and I have no intention of figuring it out.
At the moment I'm living at an amazing and lovely apartment in the middle of Water Street. What can I say? This place is almost perfect! I just love our huge roof!! I found a job at a summer camp in Mercer. I'm kinda excited about it, but not too much 'cause it's about 3 hours away and I have the feeling that I can have more fun here. However, money is money and I have resposabilities. 
Speaking of "american things to do", today I went to a lutheran wedding. In spite of the fact that it was kinda interesting to see the whole foot washing ritual, it was boring like hell. The food was bad, the music awful and the company, with the exception of Kelsey, terrible. Never mind, I'm gonna say I went to an american wedding.
There's one last thing I've been thinking about a lot; Ross. Is he into me? I gotta know before I leave for the summer camp! I just keep getting mixed signals the whole freaking time!!! he know he's cute, I know he's cute, there's one of the problems. I mean, he's not really cocky, but he know he can get whoever he wants and I don't know if I really like that. Besides... I just don't know, I don't. Gimme a sign.


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