Australia, a brave new world

The last month has been the bigger rollercoaster I've ever been on in my whole life. I actually went through with it and moved to the other side of the world, to Australia. I left everything I had built for the past 4 years in Chile and started from scratch. I left my friends whom I loved dearly, my ex-boyfriend whose love haunted me at night and I left my family with my grandpa's about to pass away. I knew somehow if I didn't leave at the moment I would never leave, I loved the three mentioned above with all my heart, but my soul needed the release only traveling would give me. This has been beyond I could ever dream, it's been amazing. I've fallen in love with this city, with opportunities to offer that mae it seem like everything's possible.
I couldn't say it hasn't been a bumpy ride. At the begining of my third week here my grandpa passed away, he left the day after I called him on FaceTime. That one really hurt as it being the first time I have ever lost someone in death. And I really made me miss my ex, whom I wasn't able to say goodbye. "Don't ask my why, I just can't say goodbye. No, not tonight, I just can't say it..." If you've ever had a love like the one I had, you'd understand. At the same time, this city offers me what Santiago never did: the possibility to have fun, to keep busy enough to let my heart heal. In a month I've been to some of the most beautiful beaches I've ever been to, I've sailed and seen wild kangaros for the first time, and foremost, I've been happier and closer to the one I've been meant to be.

Sydney is this weird dreamy city, insanely expensive where you get what you pay for and are paid for your time as it should be. It's perfection. It's incredible I'm here at times, I can't believe I'm starting again. I'm free to be me. Gosh, yes, I've missed the little fucker a thousand times more than I wish I did, but I can't help it, but I'm here and he's not gonna come for me, he never did. And I'm living a dream, hoping to live a thousand more, maybe dreams I never thought I had. This is a brave new world and I'm a brave new guy in it.


Ubicación: Sídney Nueva Gales del Sur, Australia

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