Wrapping up

I look around and I realize I just couldn't have asked for a year better year. I met these amazing people, I went to these amazing places and I survived. If you look through the pictures I've uploaded during the last 12 months, you'll notice how honest my smile looks. I literally saw how one of my bigger dreams came true. There's people that deserve an honorary mention; Monica, who always knew what to say, Katie, who was always there, Omar, who made see things in a different perspective, and for the second year in a row, Frida, who didn't let me know. 
I wonder if I would've done somethivg different and, honestly, I couldn't have. Even in those moments when all I wanted was a special person to cuddle with, I know it wouldn't have Meen fair for either of those people. besides, damn, I've sinned like I never had; on a piano, drunk, in a fancy hotel at the Times Square, interrupted by my roommate, in the beach, in an attic, and... well, I just loved this amazing year. I know more about myself, I'm ready to be myself.
bad things? Mmmm, growing up always has its ups and down, so I gotta suck it up. People did let me down and perhaps I did as well, not on purpose though. I have mixed feelings on now being 22 years old... duh!  However, the older I get, the cooler I am as well LOL
One of the more lesson I learnt this year is that getting what you want is not always what you need. I can't help it  but wonder if 2012 will be as exciting as 2011 and if more dreams will come true or not.

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