Just In My Head

La gente cuando crece dice muchas cosas. Te dice que debes madurar, te dice que comprar y qué no, puede que te digan qué estudiar o en qué invertir tu dinero. 
Sin embargo, las personas no te dicen que de un día para otro deberás tomar decisiones que pueden cambiar tu vida en un par de minutos. No te dicen que en realidad no es bueno apegarse a las personas. No te dicen que el riesgo de sentir es que puedes sentir ora cosas buenas ora cosas malas. Nunca escuchas a alguien decirte que tus padres te van a decepcionar mil y un veces, ni que familia es un concepto tan vago que solo lo entiendes cuando te sientes solo. 
Tu madre no te dice que al ser el hijo mayor eres el experimento, y que lo más probable es que se equivoque una y otra vez. Tu padre no te dice lamenta sus errores. Tu hermana no te dice que te va a extrañar cuando te vayas. Tu hermano no te dice que te admira. Tus abuelos no te dicen que el secreto de la felicidad es aprender a convivir con el dolor.
Nadie te dice que te vas a querer morir más de una vez durante tu vida, ni que vale la pena esperar para ver qué ocurre.
Estas cosas no te las dice nadie. Nadie excepto tu cabeza que busca excusas para continuar viviendo una aventura que te puede llevar a la locura.


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