Changes

Hace tiempo que no lograba escribir algo en el blog y en un par de meses estoy cambiando absolutamente todas mis perspectivas de las cosas. Siento que, como en algún momento lo predije, este año ha sido demasiado duro, pero al menos me ha servido para pensar distinto. He perdido amigos, he ganado otros. He pensado en mis proyecciones y me he propuesto otras. Es como si me hubiese llegado de golpe esto de tener 21 años, el querer más y el desechar cosas y personas. Y con una simple chispa me di cuenta lo mucho que me quiero alejar de todo por una buena cantidad de meses y haré hasta lo imposible por lograrlo. Estoy cansado de llevar el mundo en mis hombros, de que me desilusionen, de tener que morderme la lengua, de sentir el frío de la soledad constante apaciguada con chispas de calor. Hay cosas que jamás podrían cambiar en mí, siempre estaré para ayudar a un amigo, pero este año esta pequeña característica en mí me jugó en contra. Quizás fue necesario perder a 3 amigas para encontrar un mega amiga como la Frida, a veces los excesivos precios de las cosas buenas  lo valen.

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